I think about my life and the story it will tell too much. Like way too much. It is often difficult with a generation that speaks to the daring and the bold and the adventurous. I’m a dreamer and a feeler and I struggle with the false belief that the “doing” is the most important part. And yet, I’m in a season where I am at home with my little one learning about a simple obedience in the routine of life. A faithful devotion. My pride often longs for the grand story and my God is gracious as He asks if my character is able to be matched to such a calling. The Lord is showing me that even the constant thinking on “my” story reeks of an egotistic stench.
About a year into our wait for Lyle, I wrote about The Dropbox, a film created to share the story of a specific man in South Korea who was answering the call to care for orphans. I was in a season in my life where I sought out any articles related to the people of South Korea, especially those in relation to the current state of orphan care and adoption. At this point, the Korean laws in regards to adoption had just changed several months prior so writings of this subject were very frequent. I was moved by this man’s testimony and was very eager to share it with others. During our first trip to Korea, we had hoped to visit Jong Nak of the Jusarang Church where Pastor Lee’s baby box is located, but it was further from Seoul than we had imagined and more difficult to get to with public transportation. And during our second trip, we were just merely trying to survive after taking custody of Lyle and a field trip of sorts was not quite an option.
It’s been just a little over 2 years since I wrote that first post about the Dropbox film and here I sit with my precious little South Korean boy sleeping a room away. The movie arrives in the States next week with 3 showings in my hometown and I can’t think of much else the last few days. My heart still feels deeply when reading or hearing anything from his home country. And this film specifically very much causes a stirring within that is difficult to express. Partly due to the fact that my own son was once an orphan in South Korea, but also partly due to the fact that God is very evident in this man’s work. I do not know Pastor Lee, but the testimonies of those that do are telling. A man of God who lives a life of love and service to these children. I’m drawn to his radical obedience and yet as I’ve spent time reading about him and watching brief clips, I see a gentle humility. A life of a man whose obedience evidently stems from His love for God. Where as my nature clings to the doing of obedience to prove my love. I’d dare say he didn’t set out for the grand story, but oh what beauty has come from his story as he lets God write it.
I am humbled by how God drastically changed the course of my life 3 years ago. We were just stepping into our journey of adoption with a heart that hardly beat for the passions it does now. Orphan care, adoption, and the people of South Korea. God is kind to change us. I read yesterday in my Lent devotion about us as believers having a heart that would trade a whisper of our name for a shout of His. To me, that is what this movie does. I encourage you to see this film not because it expresses the passions of my heart but because I truly believe the presence of God is present in this film. Evidence of such is in the truth that the 22 year old director became a believer in the process of creating the film. This film tells about a living God using His beautiful servant Pastor Lee to bring light to orphan care in South Korea.
Here is a link to find if it is viewing near you: http://www.thedropboxfilm.com