As I turned 30 today, I vowed this morning to focus my mind on the gifts God has abundantly blessed me with. This stemmed from a weekend filled with thoughts that had begun to create in me a more discouraged heart. Grant and I have begun to really wrestle with the reality of missing our son. It is overwhelming and has honestly become quite consuming. Where getting a picture of Lyle once filled us with complete joy in the first couple of months, it has now become an even amount of bitter and sweet as we see him continue to grow and we realize the milestones we are missing.
The Lord has brought I Thessalonians to mind as I struggle with my thoughts: ”Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.”
I desire to physically make record of His goodness in my life each and everyday.
Recalling His hand whether through things seen or unseen.
So, as for today.
I rejoice in the gift of Grant and a day to celebrate 30 years of God’s good grace.
[birthday lunch at Big Orange]
Sweet sweet Kim…..we continue to pray. I am so sorry:( I understand the bitter sweet part. It really is, and the not knowing the exact time makes it so much harder b/c you remain guarded for fear of your hopes getting pummeled. God will continue to carry you and Grant; I just know it. YOu will look back on this time, and it will seem so different. Uggh. I know there is nothing I can say except that His grace is SUFFICIENT! His power is made so PERFECT in our weakness. Love you, Mer